A Humble Beginning

So here it goes... (Deep breath) I never really though I would start a blog and who knows how long I will even keep it up. I created this account a few months ago but have yet to start anything. Afraid of who would read it and what they would think of me. Despite telling myself I don't care what others think I guess I sometimes do...there are so many opinions I keep to myself and then there are those few secrets only a few know of. If they were to get out to certain individuals than I would be fucked. I have always been pretty resistant acknowledging any anger, pain or frustrations. When I am angry, I let it go but deep down it still hurts...sometimes. Perhaps this will serve as a catalyst to force thoughts to surface. Who knows, maybe one day I will end up confronting some of those feelings, tell someone I fucking hate you or start a process of pushing everyone away. After all, I am scared of what you will think if you find out who I really am...When they really get to know you they will run.