The Earth Is Not A Cold Dead Place

So I renamed my blog to The Earth Is Not A Cold Dead Place. This is the title of one of my favorite albums by Explosions In The Sky. I know it sounds cliche but the title really resonates with me. Though I often despise the society we live in good things still exists. Even when there are bad events the earth still exists. I suppose in all love & hate, peace & war there exists life, even if it is being taken. The truth is,  something is always happening to us or around us that influences what we are presently doing or what will be done in the future. It is a comforting thought when I think about it... life is not stagnant but ever-changing and in a changing the  world, we are given the opportunity to make change in ourselves.

I need to make a lot of change in my life right now. I need to take care of myself before I lose interest in everything. This brings me to my current situation. It has been one week since I have been unemployed and it has been great! Not having to report to anyone is a fantastic! Today I sent a resume/cover letter to a new job opportunity. WHY! I want so badly to give myself two months of "recovery" and then I make attempts to return to the mundane woes of an office dwelling. Do I have something to prove to myself? Must I have a job? Must I compete with peers? Must I maintain the status quo? I am also looking for practicum sites for the fall. Yesterday I attended the Practicum Fair and submitted five resumes. Although I made a good impression I still felt that I was falling back into old routines. This week has already been stressful and I want time to myself yet I continue to increase the level of responsibility . I never realized I had such high expectations of myself. 

This song inspires me to relax :)

"There must be something in you, turning boys to men and back again"