Reflection

When I decided to come back and make another attempt at displaying my life on a blog I almost thought of deleting my first entry. After reading it I felt ashamed of the words I said and felt that those words did not reflect who I am now. I decided to leave it though. Why erase previous memories, emotions, feelings...they existed at one point.

So I decided to start this blog to document the recent changes in my life. After being laid off in January I scrambled to find work. I took the first job that made an offer. To make a long story short, I felt unhappy. I accepted the job to compensate for my image. I HAD to be employed, I HAD to maintain the status quo of "being responsible and being productive". It took only one month for me to admit defeat and quit. It felt great!

Today begins day two of unemployment. Unemployed not as a result of our faltering economy but by choice. It sounds crazy but hell, I am feeling courageous enough to be this crazy. I don't know what I will do for money but I am not worrying now. My rent is the cheapest it has ever been, I have loans to complete grad school, and I have the support of family and friends. The camera is charging right now, the tires on my bike are full and out of this small studio exists a world I have neglected the past five years.

-Frank