Laura was up in Mammoth and I was lonely the moment I saw her off on Friday. Sometimes these breaks really make me think of how much I love this young lady. I originally had all these crazy plans like leaving the county and going up north to SF but in the end I couldn't manage to do it. I believe I make big plans to travel but in the end I never do it. The open road is enticing to those that wish to escape life and I am always trying to escape my life. I don't want to face the boring reality of work and school while balancing a social life. This weekend alone allowed me to test what life would be like if I dropped everything and disappeared into the vast land that is America. I realized I would be lonely. I have noticed that when I was younger I used to enjoy being alone and that is not the case anymore. I hate going out alone! I feel lost. I dreaded shopping because Laura is always my company. Who would pick out last minute snacks or stop and look at Twilight/Teeny Bopper magazines? Have I finally realized a fraction of what life is, that human beings need one another to draw out love, creativity, and passion? I say YES! It is the journey of the soul to seek out another that makes him feel alive. The open road can wait while the soul journeys first.
On another note, Have you heard the song No You Girls by Franz Ferdinand? When I saw the video I immediately thought how corny the lyrics were yet it was my "guilty pleasure" (especially at 1:26) I don't think Franz will ever match their S/T but this comes close.
-FB

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